Funny what a difference a few weeks can make. 

I won't go into the reasons why, for my  own personal reasons, but for those who care to know and have not heard yet, I am getting a divorce.

I worry most about my kids.  They are the best kids in the world, and I hate to see them hurt.  But I also hope they can continue to come to me with their questions, fears, confused or happy emotions.....anything and everything.  I hope so many things for them.  But mostly I hope they remember that I love them more than life itself and that they believe me when I say it's going to be ok.

I have found a house to live in, but can't move until July 1.  The kids are excited about the new house.  But in the mean time, to help with the transition process, I have agreed to leave on the weekends.  I think my husband is also willing to take a weekend or two away, and kind of alternate.  One can hope.

So on the weekends I'm gone, my friend BigToe has custody of me.  She's a good surrogate sister.  We went and got our fingers and toes done today. 

Custody is a funny thing.  I hope what we have worked out will actually work.  I think it will.   One can hope.

Hope is another funny thing.  It's what gets us from the bad things going on in our lives to the good things.  Bad things are bound to happen.  But good always follows.  This is what I told my kids when we broke the news to them.  I hope they believe me.

Yes, I love my kids more than life itself.  Each one is different.  Each one is beautiful.  Each one is special.  Each one inspires me every day in some small way, and they don't even know it.  They are my  heroes, in so many ways.  Some day, they will know.  I hope I continue to be a hero to them.  I hope my strength will carry them through. 

More than life itself.

yeah